Today I have a life, relationship and healthy body that make my heart sing and my smile sparkle. I consider myself one of the lucky ones, having been gifted the wake-up call that brought well-being, energy medicine and personal growth practices into my life that have shaped how I show up as a woman in today’s world.
Seeped in trust, connection and consciousness, my connection to feeling every experience of my life grows more courageous every day. I’m present to my life, relationships and family in ways I wasn’t just a few years ago. And I’m deeply fulfilled on a personal level. I have a career of my own design, a naturally healthy body, relentless levels of energy and passion, deep connection to spirit, soul and self. Solidly self-aware and unabashedly self-expressed, I live life on my own terms. And it keeps getting better!
Nearly a decade ago, I began visiting doctors–many of them. My stomach hurt, my energy was drained, I was stressed, anxious and had lingering discomforts that told me something was not right in my body. For over a year, I was looking for answers that doctors didn’t have to a problem they couldn’t diagnose. I had weekly ultrasounds and a file of hospital receipts that was 1″ thick. I secretly thought maybe I was dying of something exotic and yet uncharted.
All the while, life continued. But life was far from fantastic, even on the good days. I changed jobs, I changed relationships. I got answers to my health and started a protocol for getting better. Life improved for awhile, but not really. I was living over the top of a lot of emotions, and so I’d just distracted myself for awhile. My soul was whispering and I was turning up the radio to drown it out.
In my late 20s, my health, career, spark for life and relationship simultaneously began to crumble. When your soul speaks, it collaborates with the Universe in small and large ways. In my case, the roar came the days after my so-called relationship ended. I’d been dating the same person for two years, only to find out via Facebook that I wasn’t the only woman in his life. His last words to me were, “I hope this [unfaithfulness, heartbreak] doesn’t ruin you.”
What occurred to me through the days that followed was a curiosity about how connected I was (or wasn’t) to my body and my life. After all, where had I been, that I had missed all those whispers?! Who was taking responsibility for changing my life, caring for my body, if not me?
This was the roar of my soul stepping forward.
What followed was a personal challenge to learn about myself, to love myself, to seek out what made me happy and whole and to show up for myself in ways yet uncharted.
This was coincidentally, when my health started to improve.
What I didn’t know then, was just how connected my body was to my life. Or how natural it is for us to heal, when we dig into the emotions that are blocking our health. I now believe in getting to the root source and deeper understanding of anything I can. Personal growth and natural wellness are not practices — for me they are life’s richest soil for cultivating my life as I choose to create it. Women are the source of life; its ours to evolve in the best ways possible. Every woman has a right to understand her own vital needs, desires, body and potential. Being the best version of ourselves is not just a journey, it’s our responsibility to those we love.